those words stung. there i am standing alone... waiting for u to come. but u never showed up. all i saw was the image of ur back...
i guess today was a bad day... it all started wrongly. things werent being able to print and messed up horribly... had a freaking late lunch. almost got into a state of gastric... den was supposed to go watch awesome fireworks with union ppl... but guessed wad. we got seperated into 3 groups. mi with yvonne and liyana(not union), benjy, zai and tim another... dent the seniors in one grp.
i guess it was partly my fault... i was too hot headed. but YOU knew that i was afraid of being alone. YOU knew that i couldnt be anywhere myself. i was afraid. i didnt know how to get to funan. u guys were already at the bridge when i was at the other end of the esplanade. would u guys stop and wait for mi? i was really pissed off. did u guys cared if i was dead or alive? would u have tried to keep calling mi if i didnt call u guys? i need to know my importance in this world. i feel so wasted.
so now u're pissed off at mi. im not gonna apologise for smth i think that is not my fault. i apologise for too many thgs that aint my fault already. u said those stuff that really hurt mi. does it mean that this is it? does it mean u never really really ever cared in the first place? i dunno... u said that u tot i was with benjy and co.. but did u even check. i know i would have, coz i care too much. i would have asked to double checked. and u said u were focus and into details. i hate liars. r u one? asking u to come for the fireworks was to have u stand by mi as we watch those beautiful sparks fly and explode in the sky into art that onli science could ever achieve. but as i stood in the crowd and watch those fireworks, i felt alone. i felt cold. where were u? and not long after, u made mi felt like my existence was merely a stranger in passing. is that all i am? i really need to know. i need assurances juz like u do. i need care and concern from u. ad most importantly, i need u to understand mi... i juz messed up my life today. i juz didnt know there were so many ppl there with u. could i go?
